I’m grateful for a new day, every day! I am grateful for children. They are untainted and are always smiling. I’m grateful for my family especially my siblings. I'm grateful for a good job! A job period! I am grateful for my animalitos who always know when I am feeling blue, and do their best to get me out of it. Luz kneaded my head last night for about 1/2 an hour while I was falling asleep. Also to Chantel for reminding me that I am cabrona! I am grateful for the gift of life and the joys and sorrows that it brings.....I am grateful that I know how to give & receive the greatest gift of all.....LOVE! I am grateful for the dance! I am grateful for my family and true friends who have stood by me through all of life's twists and turns. Most importantly I am grateful to have a God who is all loving and forgiving. I am grateful to my angels and spirit guides, they know what for! I am so thankful for my Health; it’s a real eye opener when one of your best friend is battling cancer. My family who is always there when I need them, also, my friends who are always there for me. You said it all right there Lori! Life has its up and downs and it is so wonderful to have loving family and friends there for the ride! I am grateful to God for giving me such a wonderful son. He brightens my day... Every day!!! I'm grateful for my Mom, she drives me crazy sometimes but she is always there when I need her and when I don’t. She rocks! I am grateful for being able to listen to my children’s voices as they are laughing and having fun xx I am grateful for my boys. When I was 19, the doctor told me I would probably never be able to have kids, so they are definitely a blessing! They are the best thing in my world! I am grateful to the universe for bringing me exactly where I am supposed to be, working next to Chantel every day. I´m grateful for so many things...my family, where I live, my great friends, my job...but today specifically - for the smile on my face :) I'm grateful that I' so happy! I am grateful for life and everything that brings to us. I am grateful for each day, each breath. I have the opportunity to start fresh with each inhale. And when the sun breaks each morning, I have yet another opportunity for an amazing day. I am thankful for my loving husband, my great family and all my wonderful friends that make me so happy everyday! I am grateful for endless possibilities. Amen to endless possibilities...I am feeling open to change! And I am grateful for my nephews, the two coolest humans on the planet. I'm grateful for my friends. They are family. Health! I am grateful that my kids will grow up in a safe and loving community. Family, friends & the simple things.....:) I ♥ u Chan!!! My babies! I am grateful for everything that is wonderful in my life, most of all my little family!!!

Happy in my loneliness

It's been a long time since I have blogged and my last blog was very emotional for me. I miss Andrea more now than I did when I wrote that blog, but she is doing very well in Montreal and has even met a very nice boy. I am happy for her, I know she struggled with the decision and things still aren't that easy for her, especially when she leaves MSN messenger open on her moms computer!!! Ok Ange, that goes down in the goober girl hall of fame!

As for me, I feel a bit lonely right now, longing for familiar people and places, longing for the warm summer nights back home sitting around camp fires with family and friend, laughing until my stomach hurts. Beers on the back deck after work, but most of all I just really miss having someone in my life. Someone to eat meals with, someone to talk to my day about someone to encourage me, someone to be my cheerleader, someone to hug me, someone to be proud of my for my accomplishments, someone to grab me and hug me, someone to crawl in to bed with at night, someone to kill that big spider when I just can't do it. Life for me right now is filled with so many great things to be grateful for, so much love and abundance but I really feel like I am missing someone.........I miss most the physical touch of this person, I crave the simplicity of touch, interaction with someone. It seems when we have this we take it for granted, I know I did in the past.............but in my future when I do meet this person it is one thing I will never take for granted~! I will look back on this time and remember these seemingly hot lonely summer nights in Mexico and remember that they are what has brought me to be who and where I am.

I am going to miss you so much Ange!!!

I am back, back to my life in Puerto Vallarta. As the plane touched down today I was overcome with emotion. There are so many things in my life changing currently. I just flew in from a fun filled week up north with friends and family celebrating yet another party for Marcus and Kelsie's wedding~We had a blast and I feel so fortunate to have such amazing people in my life. I was picked up at the airport for the last time today by my bestfriend here, Andrea. Saturday morning at 8:30 she will end her journey here in Puerto Vallarta and head to Montreal to start the next phase of her life. As I sit here and write this I have tears running down my cheeks, it is rare in this life to meet people like Andrea, I am sad she is leaving but I am so very thankful that our paths crossed and we have had 6 of the most amazing life changing years together here in Puerto Vallarta. I know this isn't the end of our friendship but just the beginning of our friendship from afar. Ange I am so happy for you and you know that I want you to be happy! I think you have made a great decision to move! I will miss you like crazy, things will never be the same, we will now look forward to trips north and south to see each other and cherish the times we will have! Be safe, don't do anything I wouldn't do (leaves things pretty wide open). Remember if you are going to take a taxi to a banda concert in the middle of the night drinking a bottle of red wine, duck when the beer bottles start getting thrown at your head. When you get pulled over by the police in Montreal, don't tell them you hate Canadians if he asks if you are married. I will surely miss our impromptu nights on the town (Gato Negro anyone?), our lazy days on the beach, our nights just sitting around chatting, bbq's at my house, drinking beers on the balcony, but we have our entire lives ahead of us, our futures are bright! Be safe amiga, I will miss you more than you will ever know!

I am so blessed!

The title says it all, I am incredibly blessed. I just had the most amazing 2 weeks here in this magical palace with the best people on earth, my family and friends! We celebrated the beautiful wedding of my brother Marcus and his beautiful new wife Kelsie! We partied for 15 days straight! We turned this town upside down one bar at a time (even the gay bars). It's been a bit of a let down to have everyone gone, but naturally I havn't sat still yet. Work has been crazy, I feel like I will get another sale this week, and have also been contacted by my old job to maybe come back. Not sure what I will do at this point, but I did put it out to the universe that I needed to make money and some things are coming my way. This blog is short tonight as I am completely exhausted, but I want to put up a few photos! I love you all and thanks for checking in on me! More later!
Light and Love
xo

AM Banana Bread!

Life is challenging right now, I guess becuase I can only (or choose to)see my path one day at a time! I need to make money and support myself, but at this point and time it's difficult! I know like everything, this too shall pass! I know this is a lesson for us all to slow down and not get so wrapped up in our obsession of material things but rather to enjoy each other. I have a friend here in Puerto Vallarta, the family is not rich, in good time they barely make it with 3 teenage kids. I was talking to her yesterday and she said, well we don't have a lot but we have each other and we have been enjoying spending time together (the kids are going on 2 weeks out of school, and her husband has been cut to part time in the hotels becuase of the swine flu scare, thanks US media, we really fucking appreciate your fucking stupidity)I asked how they were financially, she said well, we have coffee, water, rice and beans so we are doing good, we can eat everyday! That pretty much put things in to perspective for me!

Very relaxing and a super chill end to a fairly heavy day. I have dubbed myself "The Ice Pack" it seems that most of my friends here have had melt downs in the last few weeks, and I seem to get the phone call in the middle of it! I am sure my time will come and I will have a lot of people to call!

Adios 28~Hello 29

As my 29th birthday is quickly closing in on me, I have decided to do something for myself that is very out of character for me (details to be given later..........hehe).

I want to remind myself of my journey, why I am here, what I am here to learn and do for others. Too many times I get far too wrapped up in everyday life and forget to live my life and help others.

The higher power has done a splendid job of reminding me lately to stop and help! Every time I have been down on myself or my situation, it seems that I am presented with an opportunity to help someone less fortunate than myself. For example: Last week when my friends were visiting, we went to the bus stop, as I approached there was a man, blind, and obviously lost. I greeted him and asked where he needed to be. Come to find out, the bus had dropped him off at the wrong stop, after chatting with him for a moment, Tony and I walked him back 2 blocks to the bus stop where his sister would be picking him up for Sunday lunch. In conversation on our short 2 block walk, I found out his name was Angel and yes he was my Angel for the day! Please don't forget to help each other, especially right now, it's amazing what a small gesture like walking a blind person 2 blocks can do!

We are part of a whole that is so much bigger than anything out finite minds can grasp or understand. I have finally in my 28th year started to try and grasp this concept...........is it easy, no! But try and remember to live in the present and not worry too much about the future, it will be what it will be and you will shape it with the decisions you make today!

Light and Love to all! xo

Nostalgia

Nostalgia: The term nostalgia describes a longing for the past, often in idealized form. This statement pretty much sums up my life the last week! I have had the pleasure of having some great friends down to visit this past week! We have had such a great time, days spent swimming in the cold salty ocean, sharing stories, laughing, basking in the sun and partying till the wee hours of the morning. Along with old friends also comes the nostalgia and memories of my ex-fiance Victor. Our break-up was sudden and harsh, I spoke to him one time since that was more than two years ago. Through my friends I am remembering the good times and the good side of him. Over the last two years I have grown to learn that we all make mistakes, be them big or small we are not perfect. Is he proud of what he did, no, absolutely not, is he happy now, yes, he has a beautiful girlfriend and daughter, what he was longing for with me but I wasn't ready to give him.

I miss the good times and I have a lot to thank him for. I speak fluent Spanish much becuase of him and his family. They lovingly accepted me in to their family and with much love and patients taught me to speak their language. Unless you have moved 3000 miles from home in to a foregin culture, you will never know the lonelyness that can set in and how amazing it is to be welcomed so lovingly. Just like life, it was not all happy times, we had our shares of ups and downs but we both learned to be flexible and to understand and accept that God brought us together for a reason.

I have been working on myself and growing as a person, spiritually and working on putting everything in my past at peace and leaving it in the past. I put it out the the universe a few weeks ago that I fully forgive Victor and I wish him the best and I am moving on. I then drempt that we hugged, he turned and walked away, it was an amazing feeling. So today I decided that I would like to do it in person, to let him know that I wish him the best.

I spoke to him today and let him know that I would like to see him next week so I can tell him face to face I forgive him and wish him the best. He and I are both looking forward to the meeting and the closing of the door. This has been 2 years in the making but I finally feel at peace.

Thanks Joe and Shelly for being the catalist for this!! Have a safe trip home tomorrow, can't wait until you come back!
xoxo

Memories

I asked some friends on Facebook to leave a memory

Memories, remember when you shared my daughter`s birthday one year and u organized the party and gave her a laptop, i do thank you for the awesome memory

I remember both of us talking things of the spirit at the Spa... I miss that

I remember you and my kids tubing at your grandparents place in the country.

I remember having dinner with you and a bunch of folks at La Tia Catrina and the kids were coming around to our table to sell things and you said to one little girl No gracias mi amor.... and I thought that was so sweet.....

You saved my ass senior year of college by giving our group presentation while I had an emergency appendectomy! We always chose each other for group project because we could count on each other...kinda contradicts my other memory above! hA!

I remember the day you swam up to me at the Villa del Palmar pool and were so excited that you had just found a place to rent in Vallarta and were moving there for 6 months. A great after-college adventure that has turned into a career, many friends and a wonderful life. Thanks for taking the time to share with us that day. You are one of the serrendipities of life :-)

25 Things....

1. I was born with a condition called trigger thumb and had to have surgery when I was 4
2. I am fully bi-lingual in English my first language and Spanish
3. I lost my big front tooth on top biting into a giant Oreo at Girl Scouts when I was little
4. I miss having horses and hope to be able to have them again someday!!
5. I live in a beautiful beach town in Mexico, yet I hardly ever go the the beach, I really should change that!!
6. I hope to continue on my spiritual journey
7. I love the fact that in Mexico someone gases up my car for me
8. One person that makes me stop in my tracks is the 87 year old woman who goes around Vallarta selling her home made bread. I love her so much, every time I see and hug her I remember why I love living here.
9. I have a cat that I rescued out of the Mexican jungle, his name is Wazzu and he is my best buddy!! Maybe the fact that I buy his food has something to do with him loving me but I doubt it!
10. I was engaged once, called the wedding off 4 months before, he was cheating, then met a nice guy, then found out he was cheating too....now I am single and finally happy for the first time in a long time!
11. My Dad got a cell phone this summer and I really enjoy being able to call him or him calling me just to chat, I really cherish our talks!!!
12. I have 2 brother to whom I am so proud to be their sister. They are smart, funny, loving people and I am glad they are in my life!!!
13. I am a migraine sufferer, they have gotten so bad that now I have to go to the hospital to control the pain sometimes!
14. I am so very excited that my brother Marcus has found a wonderful woman and partner, I am so happy that May 16th Kelsie will be my sister-in-law!!!
15. I believe that what goes around comes around, so watch how you treat people and what you do!!
16. I would love to someday have children!!!
17. I know this amazing person, amazing at business, caring, compassionate, always there for everyone, hardworking, funny, very loving, always gives me the best advice (usually makes me cry), has ALWAYS been there for me, her name is MOM! I LOVE YOU
18. I have lived in Mexico for more than 5 years !! WOW
19. I am totally fed up with my hair color and can't find anyone in this town to color it right!!!
20. I could listen to good Mariachi all night long
21. I wish I had more money in the bank than I currently do!
22. This last week has made me make some tough decisions and do a bit of soul searching, I guess things like this are just natures way of pushing us to the next task!
23. I miss all my friends from back home, I feel like I never have enough time to spend with them when I am there, but I know, they know I love and miss them much!
24. I think it's pretty cool that the guys from Vallarta Adventures saved a whale by untangling it out of a fishing net last week!
25. I am anxious to see what happens next week!

Happily Exhausted!

I had a wonderful last 5 days!! Jessica my cousin came to visit and we had a very well deserved catching up after 4 almost 5 long years of not seeing each other! I will be writing about our visit this week, but for tonight I will post some photos! We had a great time but I am tired and need to recharge my batteries! Love to you all!

One door closed, getting ready to open another!

I am really proud of myself for what I did today, it wasn't easy and it has been needing to be done and I finally did it. I cut all "ties" with my ex Jorge. He owes me a substantial amount of money, which I feel he is using to keep me somewhat in his life. He has had 2 chances to pay me back and neglected to on both occasions. So today I made the decision to forgive him, forget about the money and move on. I wrote him a letter, I let everything I felt gush out, I let him know that I forgave him and that I hope he gets help. I let him know that what he did hurt me and that I know he is a good person deep down, just a good person in need of some help. I never intended to send him the letter but I did end up emailing it to him. Now I wrote the letter in English my first language, as I felt things would be better expressed, I also sent the letter to him in English to which he doesn't speak or read very well. Hopefully he will take some time to translate it. I am sure he will be happy that he doesn't have to pay me back the money, but I hope he takes to heart what I said about getting help. Good bye my friend, we had a good journey, I learned a lot, but it is time for me to move onward.

You all know what they say, when one door closes, another one opens! I can finally say I am ready for that door to open! I am really looking forward to what life has in store for me. I have put it out to the universe that I would really like to meet some new gal pals, as good women companions are not easy to find, especially here in Vallarta. I have been fortunate enough to meet two really neat women in the last few weeks, and I look forward to getting to know them better!

I went to the mall today, something I seldom do here. It was about 4pm and I hadn't had lunch yet, so trying to stay on course I got a Subway and sat down to eat before meeting my client. As I was sitting eating, a young Mexican boy and his dad sat down beside me. They had just gone to McDonalds and gotten ice cream, it was clearly a treat for the little boy who spoke with the cutest lisp in Spanish. I could hear him saying to his dad "Thank you so much for the ice cream daddy, I really love vanilla" Then he sang a bit of a song that he learned at school, all while vanilla ice cream dripped off his chin. His dad got up to get a napkin and told the little boy to sit tight and not move. I had become a fly on the wall observing their afternoon outing and as the dad was gone the little boy locked eyes with me and gave me a huge smile and a wave. Children amaze me, that happy little boys wave made my heart smile, I proceeded to wave back with a mouth full of sandwich, he then carried on eating his ice cream, legs swining, and mouth singing his song. Just a little reminder to take a break from the crazy merry-go-round that is our lives and enjoy the smiplicity of a smile from a stranger, whatever age they may be.

Good bye "for now" to a friend!

I have to say as I write tonight I feel like things are starting to come to an end. My friend Isahari is leaving at 4:45 am on a plane to Guadalajara, to have a failing kidney removed and half of a cancerous liver. She is the ripe old age of 30 and is no stranger to surgeries. I met her a few months back by chance while ordering a drink at a party I had been invited to. I didn't know many party goers but I now know that I was meant to go there to meet her. There are people in your life that you meet along the way that make very deep and lasting impressions on you, she is one of those people in my life. I had a coffee with her the other nigh to say goodbye and catch up on her life.

Now, on a good day most healthy people complain about this that and the other, her well.........she is on dialasis every 3rd day, running her business, playing with her band nightly at the Shearaton, how she finds the energy to do all this I have yet to know. We talked about her plans, plans for the new websites, plans for traveling, visiting family, future plans. I find it so amazing that someone who has been living with terminal cancer for 10 years is so excited about the future. She once told me that when she was diagnosed at 19, her doctor told her she had little time to live. She turned to her doctor and said "I'll let you know when I am done living." Please friends send her your prayers, light and love as she journeys once again in to another surgery and more up hill battles!!!

Change needed!

Last week was nutty, nutty good that is! I finally sold a house!! YIPEE, it's been a long time and tough market. Lovely clients from Canada, they will really enjoy their new home here in Puerto Vallarta. I also put in 2 offers on other homes here, the bottom has not fallen out of the market here like in the states so when people start throwing low ball offers, the sellers tend to get a little pissed as is what happened last week. All is well that ends well, guess it just was not ment to be! Some sadness as well, my friend Stephanie lost her father, my friend Trish lost her sister and my workmate Teresa lost her father. Seems it usually comes in threes. I do have to say this is one of the weirdest times I have lived in my life, so much uncertinty in the world and uncertinity in my life as well. I also had the chance to have dinner with Ronnie and Kathy, a really neat couple that has just moved here! We had a blast, we drank wine unitl almost 1 am sharing stories! Kathys birthday is tomorrow and she has invited me to celebrate with them at her friend Marcelas house, looking forward to it!
I got a call friday night from a good friend who I hadn't seen in a long time, Celina. We have been saying for months that we were going to get together and that we did on Friday night. I met her and Karen at La Dolce Vita on Friday night at 11 pm. We had a few glasses of wine and talked about life, kids, men, being a woman, and then off we went to De Santos! Cut a rug we did! We danced till the sun came up! I saw a lot of other people at De Santos I had not seen in a long while, I tend to get wrapped up in my own little world here and forget how many great people I actually know and love here! We were like 12 years olds at a slumber party listening to the raido when a good song came on to dance to, we all cheered! I guess its the simple things in life like a galss of wine and dancing the night away with girlfriends that make it worth living!
I had a great day today, well besides listening to the jack hammer wripping out the stiars above my house, I spent most of the day working on a blog for my parents business Manntiques.

http://manntiques.blogspot.com

They are open again for the season and we all wish them the best! Also if you are on Facebook look for their group page, Manntiques and Upholstery!

I am very excited that I have stuck with my workouts and healthy eating for over a month, as of today I am still down 11 pounds!! Yipee, I am very proud of myself. Looking back I am now realizing how I covered my unhappyness with Jorge up with food. I used food to fill the void, well not anymore, I am working on me now! I am mediatating more and finally feel like I am coming out of the fog and feeling like I am in control of my life again. Good things are coming my way because I am going to make them!! Actually in the whole scheme of things I have it pretty good, a loving, healty family, an amazing network of friends and a future full of possibilities! Lovin life! I will leave you tonight with this photo I took outside my office yesterday. Obviously there were not parking spots on the street, so this guy just used the sidewalk!! xoxo

Facing deportation is never fun!

Hello, hello, hello! Wow where to start with tonight's blog.....I would have written sooner but I was very busy being detained by Mexican Immigration authorities. Yes, on Tuesday, my old boss decided that he has a personal vendetta against me and my co-workers. He lovingly sent the immigration authorities to our office to detain and investigate us for allegedly being involved in illicit acts in Mexico. After 6 hours of being detained and lots of paperwork, we walked out of the immigration office with some good new friends and our FM3 work visas on the fast track to being done. I am upset with him to say the least, throughout this whole company split up ordeal I have kept neutral and taken the high road. Careful not to say anything about him and now he turns around and stabs us all in the back, well I am not going to be quiet anymore, I am going to let everyone know what a spineless coward he is. I love how he covers it with the holyier than thou shit, God blessing everyone! HA, yeah right! I have truly come to the conclusion that he is mentally ill, he tried to have us deported on false accusations for God sakes, the man is sick and I hope he gets some help!

Well the Peso came back a bit today, guess the small rise of the stock market had an effect. I am sure that it will dive again next week as Chicken Little continues to run around yelling "the sky is falling, the sky is falling". I am once again trying to stay positive but its hard.

I taked to my brother Gavin on the phone for over an hour tonight and we talked about a lot of different topics but most of all how hard it is to find a job right now. He expressed that he felt a bit like he has "failure to launch" (which by the way might be the name of his new blog coming soon!! Can't wait to read it Gav) becasue he has graduated and has moved back in with our folks. I just told him be really thankful that we have such wonderful parents that allow us to move back in when we need it, I guess that is what family is all about. I am not a bit worried about him, he is a super smart individual and is studing and preparing for the boarder patrol exam. He is excited about the prospect of becoming a boarder patrol agent. I know how he feels and I reminded him tonight that after I graduated college I moved back in with the folks too, to prepare for my move to Mexico. Think it made him feel a little bit better! Love ya Gav, hang in there, you have lots of success in your future, I have no doubt! How ironic, I live in a country that has so lovingly accepted me to work and live here and he is preparing to guard the US boarder against peopole trying to leave this country and get in the US for a better future!

I have been busy battling a cold and working with clients this week. Have some good prospects but never get too excited in this market, one day a buyer the next day they fall off the face of the earth! Brian, I have to apologize that I wasn't home when you called this week, we keep missing eachother, maybe next week, I hope you had a rockin time skiing!
Thats all for the evening, going to take some good cold meds and as my grandfather always said "hit the hay" I hope you all have wonderful weekends and enjoy yourselves, after all no matter what don't stop living and enjoying your life!
xoxo

I know those guys in the sushi place, where do I know them from??

Wow what a day! A good day that is, maybe an odd, interesting day as well. I had lots of clients drop by to see me today, I am trying to find my enthusiasm with them but in this market it is hard. As Johnny says "I am sick of being a bloody tour guide" Oh well hopefully things get better sooner than later. Almost took a pointless trip out to Bucerias, but only got to the Marina before I aborted the mission. Found out later the client never even showed for the other agent either!

Went for a pretty good workout tonight, thanks Trish for that little extra "encouragement" before we left work. I think it went something like this "you get your butt to those stairs, I mean it" hey I did, worked out for 2 hours. So if I don't show up at work tomorrow, please come and help me get out of bed becuase this body is feeling it!! Tackled those stairs 3 times tonight, most I have done in one stretch! I will take a photo of "The Stairs" so everyone knows what I am talking about. They are down on Los Muertos and they are known around Vallarta. All you have to stay is "The Stairs" and everyone knows!! If you have lived here long enough you have probably heard of them or had the pleasure of tackling them in person!

We are close to the full moon but as I was climbing the stairs to my house finishing up my work out (seems to be a theme for me, up hill battles) I saw the moon appearing from behind the mountains and it was spectacular. I ran home to grab the camera but when I went back to take the photo it was too far up! So for your viewing pleasure I am putting up a photo of the last full moon in February that I took at 4 am from my living room window! Speaking of tomorrow I think it is time for my bed!

Filthy Oar?

Another weekend done and gone. What did I do with my weekend, not a whole lot! I have to apologize to my friend Kathy I didn't make it to her birthday party due to feeling a bit under the weather on Saturday. Took it pretty easy this weekend and I am surely feeling better and ready to attack this week. It looking like it certainly could shape up to be epic. I have to make good on a promise to have dinner with my friend Isahari! She is headed to Guadalajara next week to have her liver operated on once again since the cancer came back! She is up for he fight I just want to see her before€ she goes! 30 with terminal cancer, musician, living in Mexico, running a wildly successful consulting business, makes it hard for me to feel sorry for myself, she may not think so but she is an inspiration to me! This week will be full of wavering Real Estate clients, confused rental clients, dinners and pot lucks with friends and a night at the Twisted Rose for Salsa. Should be an interesting one. You know since living and working in a tourist town, it amazes me how dumb people can be and how they manage to make it through life. Seriously, when I worked in the hotel, I don't know how many lost purses, cameras, passports, and suitcases I tracked down. Just thought I would share!

I spoke to my good friend Luke tonight, he has another brilliant idea, he is leaving this week for Reno to pick up his next pet project.

Yes ladies and gentlemen that is it in all it's glory! Please if you have a name for the new floating palace, share it!! So far I hear it will have a stripper pole, Keg 'a' rator and room for "lots of fun"! Can't wait to see how this one runs it's course. Hopefully Luke can tow the thing home from Reno with no causalities! More stories coming soon, about the, shall we call it, "Filthy Oar"!? That will be it's name for the time being and the one I am voting for!!! Oh by the way, I have been promised that if I do move back to the US I can become the first mate, but I have to wear the first mates hat?? Ok whatever it takes to get out on the lake!!

I got a really nice email from a good friend tonight that I had not heard from in a long while. It always makes me feel loved to hear from this person, we have such a strong connection that neither time nor distance changes much. Thanks "B" for your kind words! Guess that's about all for tonight! Go off in to the week with hope and love in your hearts, I know it's a difficult time right now but just know that things will begin to get easier and when they are hard like the are now, take out of it what you can and learn!
xoxo

~NOTHING LIKE AN EARTHQUAKE TO SHAKE YOUR LIFE UP~

I have been here for almost 6 years..............6 wonderful, amazing, life changing years here in Mexico. Thursday. March 6 at 12:34 am I was settling in to my bed and my furniture and bed started to shake as did my house, making this awful noise. Yes it was my first and hopefully last earthquake. I didn't sleep most of that night, I think the earthquake also shook loose a lot of feelings I have been having about my life. Nothing like a real live earthquake to make you wake up your inner voice! What am I doing here? What do I want for my future? Am I content in my current job? Am I happy with "me"? So many things have changed in my life in the last 6 months but I am afraid I have failed to change along with them. "Doing the same thing over and over expecting different results" the definition of insanity. Sometimes I feel trapped here in Puerto Vallarta, I know that is hard for so many to believe, but when you get here it's really hard to leave. It's almost like a Vallarta is a vortex hard to escape from! The break up from my last boyfriend Jorge and the failing world economy has most likely pushed me in to this appending change. Sometimes the universe has a crazy way of forcing us to change, I guess that's just natures way of gently nudging us to our next challenge. So I have begun the process of wrapping things up to move on to the next adventure. First I sold my engagement ring yesterday, YES!!! Finally that's gone! I also discovered that my ex is now with one of the women he was cheating on me with. But you know what, that's OK with me, I have forgiven him and now feel truly like I am moving on. I deleted him from my Facebook page, I don't really need to spy on his life and see what he is up too and it just gives it more closure. I spoke to him and wished him the best. I think we were both secretly hanging on to one another just in case, but I finally put that to rest. I wished him well with his new love and asked him not to cheat on her and break her heart like he did mine. Remember, Karma can be a bitch and what goes around comes around! Yes, Jorge, even for you CABRON!!!!! Cheating and being robbed seems to be common for me, but I have learned from it. Cheated on twice, house robbed twice, don't want to see what number three would bring in either situation, moving on and moving up! I deserve better and have taken on the Sugarland song "Settlin" as my theme song! If you have not heard it listen to it!!!

I guess nothing is really an ending just the beginning of something new. I am getting more and more comfortable day by day with the impending changes. Sure I will miss Vallarta if I do in fact end up leaving, I will miss my friends here but I am very excited to see what my future will bring. Will it be easy? No of course not, I have never been though a change that has necessarily been easy but it has all made me grow and become who I am today. I have realeased it to the universe and if there is an impending change I hope I see the signs quick enough to jump on them! That's all for now, I am totally new to blogging so a lot of the time this will probably be me rambling on about life and silly thing but hopefully some of you get a kick out of it!
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